Hey dear, i just type here what you wanna know luh. Dont know if you will seifor alnot but just try not to okay? :)
Sometimes I dont feel that i am your boyfriend because hmmm, how to say, like that day i came down to dover and your lesson extended? So I went home instead lo. Its like a wasted trip luh. So after that i met you right, you don't seem apologetic at all. Like i make an effort to meet you but you show me that no one ask you to go and find you that attitude. Most of the time i will ask, like how often will you like 'plan' when to meet me and stuff? Sometimes ya, you cannot blame me for being pekcek cos its natural reaction cos really like wasted trip. I don't wanna keep waiting like the last time because i learnt my lesson after the other time. I really am trying to control myself already to try not to blow up.
Another thing is that the things i gave you lo. Its saddening that you broken it or lost it. Its like you don't treasure the things i gave you? You just place it wherever it is? I do treasure the things you gave me lo. I know can't be helped but knowing your character, i know you just leave things around and then cannot find back. So can you like try and take care if things and not leave them as and where you like it? You dont like me losing your stuffs too right?
And ya, think i mention to you about it that you always arguing back to me right? Sometimes i really hope that i can talk to you nicely. Really dislike you arguing back. When you tell me stuff i do listen and never argue back. I think its basic respect. Dont you think so? I think its better for me to finish saying what i wanna say before voicing your opinions. I never don't let you voice, but after i finish talking.
Thats why sometimes i think that way lor. I mean i don't know because we are different. We think differently. You might think its always okay to change plans here and there, because you are not the one planning. Sometimes if i plan stuff and dont know where to go you will be like pissed and stuff. Sometimes i really don't know where to go muh. So hope you can understand. I already never blame you that you never plan stuff. So i hope you wouldn't take advantage of it. Sometimes i really don't understand what you are thinking also. Just that you get hot tempered very easily? And then i have to put up with it. Yes i can but sometimes if i happen to be in a bad mood too how? There's a limit to everything one muh. Ya la, i know sometimes i say things that make you angry, i know. Still trying to change the bad habit of mine. I know quarreling is good but from there we will know that we are both unhappy about something and trying to say things out. Sometimes i confide into someone else is to get more understanding about you and get wise advice. Sometimes give and take might be easy but its tiring all the time too.
I cannot expect you to think/feel like me but so sometimes i tell you got a reason. So sometimes i wanna meet you, even for like a while. But like you are not keen, so i am okay lor. Wanna talk to you and stuff sometimes. Sometimes seeing you will also be okay because you wouldnt meet me unless i ask. So yeah. Can't really express how i felt here but its about there. :)